My granddaughter’s face reflects my heart |
Yesterday I was bellyaching to God. . .
God, I’m irritated at you. You know how exhausted I am. How long this year has been. How long the past eight years have been. All of the schooling, and working, and planning, and dreaming. All of the waiting and uncertainty. All of the shattered and unfulfilled dreams. All of the insomnia. All of the emotional turbulence. What is the point? Really! Enough is enough. Time for you to step in and relieve me of my pain and discomfort. Haven’t I learned enough?
The transformation process can be miserable. Dark. Long. Difficult. Confusing. Maddening. Yet, the transformation process is crafted by hands of love. I can view it as punitive or as a privilege.
But God will.
His love rises above my bellyaching. Amidst His own tears, He does what is best for me. Never content until I experience all of Him.
Oh Love that will not let me go, I rest my weary soul in thee.
Thank you my Abba. I love you too. And, I’m sorry I lost sight of the love behind the pain. I’ll stop my bellyaching now.
Kinsey
I rest my weary soul in Thee;
I give Thee back the life I owe,
That in Thine ocean depths its flow
May richer, fuller be.
I yield my flickering torch to Thee;
My heart restores its borrowed ray,
That in Thy sunshine’s blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be.
I cannot close my heart to Thee;
I trace the rainbow through the rain,
And feel the promise is not vain
That morn shall tearless be.
I dare not ask to fly from Thee;
I lay in dust life’s glory dead,
And from the ground there blossoms red
Life that shall endless be.
Kim Avery says
Beautiful song. Beautiful post. Thank you.
Kinsey says
And thank you for stopping by, and for praying me through my tantrum.
Sharon says
Thanks for being so transparent. You always inspire me to go deeper. Love you.
Dr. Pamela Paul says
Love this! Love you! & Love the Makeover! (Pamela)
Kinsey says
Love you too sissy!
Ames says
i love this, momma!
Kinsey says
Love you Amy! And why is it you live so far away?
Susan Fleming says
Wow. I so needed to hear that this morning. Thanks for pouring oil on my soul.
Kinsey says
Thank you Susan for stopping by! Oil on the soul . . . I like the sound of those words.
Kerry says
Beautiful Kinsey… love your heart!
Kinsey says
Thank you Kerry!
Carolyn Dunn says
Beautiful Kinsey. You have an exquisite way with words. And heart! Thank you, Carolyn
Kinsey says
Thanks Carolyn!
Deb Wolf says
Kinsey, This is beautiful! I’m so glad you visited CMB and led me to your site. You’re so right, His is the only love that will allow us discomfort to make us more beautiful. No manipulation. Just love. Blessings to you!
Kinsey says
Thanks for stopping by Deb. Blessings back at ya!